Why has this specific person affected me this way? - Discussions, questions

Lily-Iris I think the nn conjunct moon can be amplifying your feelings for sure - even though you are the nn person, he could be your catalyst to reaching the energy your nn is striving towards.

limerence. » Lily-Iris Hey Lily Iris :)
I thought the Moon-NN conjunction might play a part but since i dont know his TOB, I´m not sure how tight or wide the orb is.
Unfortunately, he didn´t stick around long enough to be a catalyst for anything other than deep emotional pain for me.
Would you know how a Cap Moon would feel in this conjunction?
Since the node would absorb the energy, would he have felt emotionally drained eventually?

Lily-Iris » limerence. Well him causing deep emotional pain for you is a catalyst, because you would need to assess your emotional wounding in order to overcome the pain - him disappearing as shitty as it is, is also again a trigger, in order for you to work on perhaps attachment issues etc... and yes I did see that we don´t know his TOB but I think in this case, if it feels so strong I am sure that it must be close. I´m not sure, I´ve had some NN connections in my life too - not all of them lasted long, and perhaps that´s apart of the gig, but with all the other aspects its hard to tell if someone would be drained from that. Nevertheless, perhaps him not sticking around is because he is somehow triggered by your NN? Also, you said something about SN and Saturn, perhaps a past life indication - which could be karmic. If you´re feeling it this strongly, it´s probable he is too - even if he is not conscious of it.

limerence. » Lily-Iris "...because you would need to assess your emotional wounding in order to overcome the pain - him disappearing as shitty as it is, is also again a trigger, in order for you to work on perhaps attachment issues etc"

Yes, absolutely, and I´m hoping this post could help me in that journey atleast from astrological perspective ♥️

Thankyou I´m going to see what information I can find about Moon-NN.. In fact in my personal experience with synastries, the nodes have never figured prominently.. this is my first conscious connection of Moon-NN.

ChironianSun Hi limerence

Venus-Mars conjunction, Mars-Sun conjunction, Mars-Pluto square... For the sexual attraction/tension (the ´obsession´ could be that Mars-Pluto ¿?).

In my experience, sexuality and/or attraction can work like this. We feel this uncontrollable attraction to the other person because we ´need´ them. The purpose is to realise what we need to learn/heal, so if you are ´attached´ in that way to that person, then you can see it. But once you have learnt the lesson, you can stop feeling that.

Aside of his Pluto on your 7th (and maybe we should add Saturn and Jupiter as well), that this is a personal lesson for you, I am observing this group:

Saturn-South Node conjunction
/opposite/
Chiron-North Node conjunction

Saturn (among other things) as the ´teacher´ and the ´karma stuffs´, nodes as past/future (what to leave, where to go), Chiron as the wounded healer... And the opposition as what it is necessary to balance. So yes... I´d take this as one of the aspects related to your question.

Lily-Iris » limerence. Of course ~ I am sort of in a similar boat, obsessed with someone. But there is no pain luckily, I understand its hard. But I have faith you will be able to work past the pain - the only way is through.

limerence. » ChironianSun Hi ChironianSun 🌻
Thank you for spending so much time on me and my issue with this man xx

Do you think the attraction would have went both ways with his Mars on my Sun, and the Mars/Pluto square (as it is a double whammy aspect)?

"Saturn-South Node conjunction
/opposite/
Chiron-North Node conjunction

Saturn (among other things) as the ´teacher´ and the ´karma stuffs´, nodes as past/future (what to leave, where to go), Chiron as the wounded healer... And the opposition as what it is necessary to balance. So yes... I´d take this as one of the aspects related to your question."

My understanding was that Saturn and South Node was a good conjunction to have, although not without its challenges, but overall a beneficial one.
Chiron and NN.. that´s another aspect I´ve not experienced in synastry so maybe this could help me understand it better. I will look into it

limerence. » Lily-Iris Thank you me too only in good time 🙏

ChironianSun » limerence. It´s a pleasure, limerence. Thank you for your words and for being open to read 🦋✨

I can´t assure that he also felt the attraction but as anybody else, I can guess. And the fact that he was apparently so comfortable and suddenly dissapeared because a personal feeling/thought/situation, makes me this about it as a possibility. I think that aspects are felt in both senses, but maybe one of them are not really aware of what is going on exactly. So one could say "the other person just doesn´t feel it", when maybe the situation is happening in some of the layers of the unconscious.

Whatever it is, I must say for "your good", that this question focus your energy on him, when it should be focused on you. I understand it because it´s the most normal thing: the mind tries to find answers, justifications, etc. But the best answer (in the long term) you can take now is the one that focus the energy on you and your process.

With the time you´ll see that if he felt the same or not... It´s the same. Because the important thing was to triggered you, to see this specifical thing you have to heal in yourself.

As for the aspects... For me it´s all "good" 🦋 It´s whatever perspective you decide to take. I like Saturn, it´s one of the most important planets in my chart so I have a special affection for it and I would never say it´s "bad". But we tend to confuse "good" with "easy", "bad" with "hard" and "painful". And this is the point of view.

Now you can be the victim and feel depressed. Or you can feel the unbearable pain and still be aware of it, observe it, observe what thoughts come up and analyse them, to heal them.

And I know what I´m really asking you here, because I went through it myself. I can´t re-feel the sensation now as I write this, but I do remember that it felt like death. It was more than my mind was able to comprehend.... It was one of the situations where I probably experienced the so-called "death of the mind/ego".

You can hate me for this and believe me I will understand you and I won´t get " mad" about it .... But in the long term and if you work on this, you will discover that this situation was the best for you. I think you are able to do the inner work to overcome this 💛🦋

I think we would tend to think that your Saturn would limit him in some way, more so because of the opposition to his NN and your Chiron could represent some kind of wound. It would be easy to take the perspective that you somehow limited him and hurt him even on a subconscious level that he may not really understand or be aware of.

BUT, a synastry is about TWO people and I think the aspects work on both sides.... And also, it´s about YOU. What happened, happened. Now we have to look at what we have in this present. So, his South Node might have brought you issues from the past that your Saturn needs to work on, to build responsibly (someday you´ll want to go the way of Uranus, right?) and his North Node might have tried to help guide your healing. So now you need to balance both situations.

To look at the past to let it go, to heal those wounds to reorient your life to where you want to go and to be able to build it your way.

🌻🦋🌞✨