12th house love help - Discussions, questions

I have always been taught not to show people my birth chart. Like a magician to never real their tricks but i really need this help it has my life at a stand still and i need him home.
So i have walked through life alone... Even in my childhood a shut in during my teenage years i missed alot of social skills.. I rebelled young against the values of my family ( aries conj lilith opposing saturn i believe) and am the product of my mothers t-square one of three products.... Astrology is f-ing awesome...Im cancer sun moon in 12th sharing the house with Gemini.
We have been together for 8 years now and got married last year.
He is in prison( don´t think badly of him) but there has always been this draw to him. Whenever i ave hit rock bottom over the years he has been home and he grounds me and makes it better. Like everything even when he pisses me off and we fight he me something ill fight for.
There has always been this separation between us physically spiritually i feel him... I know him. I feel like there is something there blocking us and i cant see it... Idk if there are any mystics or psychics around but can you see into my blind spot please.
..to clarify is there a lesson we need to learn to bring him home... Is there something specifically standing in his way and if you are intuitive anything else you see that will be interesting good or bad im listening.