Neptune transits are really the worst - A RANT - Discussions, questions

I have no one to rant to, so I´m sharing it here. If you have any interesting stories about transit Neptune feel free to share!

So, I have a very complicated chart. When something touches my Pisces Ascendant it forms a grand square with my T-square. I am having a miserable time with Neptune on my AC. First, when it started opposing my Moon we were in the midst of a Pandemic and I started smoking weed regularly. Before that, I used to dab here and there but only socially. Fat forward to now, I am waking and baking practically everyday. It helps with my anxiety, but sometimes I miss feeling grounded.

When it came closer to my Mercury I started to make silly mistakes at work. Not a big deal, but still weird to me as I am very detail oriented (Virgo Moon). Thing is, Transit Jupiter was also conjunct my Ascendant expanding Neppy´s vibe. When Jupiter was forming an opposition to my Sun-Mars and while Neptune was already square my Mid-heaven I was suddenly fired without warning. My job dissolved right before my eyes. I had high hopes of changing sectors inside the company and getting fired was like being shot in the chest. I never saw it coming and was utterly disappointed with myself.

At first, I was suffering deeply and crying everyday. But thankfully, I got a nice severance package and I was and still am in a comfortable situation as I have a remote side job too. Also, after I was fired there was a big scandal about racism where I used to work and a lot of other people left. They reached out and said I "left" in the best possible time. Jupiter... even when it´s bad, it´s kinda good.

Now, it really does seem like I am afloat. Was offered a dream job in my field (I work in Art Conservation) but it´s a government job and my resumé is still being "analyzed" by the new manager. I am patiently waiting, but there´s too much confusion and uncertainty. I don´t know if I should get my hopes up, really... with Neptune square Mid-heaven it seems like every work opportunity will end up not happening.

Right now, T-Saturn is trining my natal Jupiter (Ruler of my 10th house). Soon, T. Jupiter will sextile it. I don´t think trines and sextiles would weaken Neppy´s transits, but maybe it could help being seen?

The thing with Neptune is that it takes ages and I still have a long way to go. It will eventually oppose sun-mars, square Saturn, Neptune, Uranus and Jupiter. Wheeeeew. Thanks for reading!