Am i losing my mind? - Discussions, questions

Jess1 Mercury square Neptune maybe? How long will I have this?

Jess1 » Jess1 Wow this explains way I’ve been so weird this last week, forgetting things, don’t even remember things I have been doin… this is so cool, so … I’m speechless

~Laura~ ""We are so busy in our own little world that we have forgotten how to look above. We are all one. We are all the same. But it’s like I’m “flying so high” I don’t know how to get back down. Am I losing my mind?

This must be Neptune something right?
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Maybe it is not about losing your mind but more about opening up your mind....

I one looks into actual transits on your natal placements - it is not neptune itself in a direct way. It is transit saturn on 0°pisces sitting on your 6th house cusp and on your health and spiritual healing axis 6th/12th house - sending 0°exact spark energy and your 12th house cusp - opening up your 12th house matters - the highest possible opportunity to fly high and to experience the Grand Whole as all being one. And inconjuncting your 11th house cusp on 0°leo.

I have my ASC on cusp of 0° - zero degree exact trined by transit saturn now - and out of the blue I had the crazy thought of -
"I let myself fall back into the amniotic fluid of the womb and swim back into the big sea of all souls - to feel the being one ".

Having like you - also my venus in 12th house.

~Laura~ » Jess1 Transit uranus is actually in last arc minutes of ending it´s inconjunct transit on your neptune.

Transit mercury today has squared your pluto - sitting on your 2nd/8th house axis- - not yet squaring your neptune - but if - it will only last for 1 day exact.

Kannon McAfee You have expressed clear insights here and I am in agreement with pretty much everything you perceive. Just be careful about the "can´t" that can be a brick in a wall to what you don´t yet realize you *can* do.

And you are right — getting grounded is much of the answer, probably most of it. One way to do that is to get out with some sizable trees, sit with your back to one or hug it long enough to feel the grounding. Another way that is more immediate is to do some deep breathing down into your belly, hold each inhale a couple seconds, then let it out slowly. Deep breathing has been shown in at least one study to relieve stress better than some types of meditation.

And yes, you´re having some Neptune transits that are contributing to this. But the one contributing the most right now is Uranus nearly precisely quincunx to your natal Neptune. That transit can be confusing, yet allow breakthrough insights or learning in the advancement of a broader, more cosmic awareness. It can allow some shifts in your beliefs that can be liberating, allowing you to shed past misconceptions. Just don´t take on new ones to put in its place (anything that limits you or precludes your power in any way).

So yes, maybe losing the old limited human mind you had — but for a more soul-mind that sees unity instead of separation.

Jess1 » ~Laura~ Thank you for your reply. Okey.

This thoughts aren’t new in anyway. It was just the feeling I had about it, like it separated me from myself and my “normal self”. And the differences between them was so big that I felt like I couldn’t incorporate them in to one, that I have to choose one. I had these feelings for sometime now, trying to stabilize them togheter. And sometimes I have the feelings of is it just me who sees all these things that I see and maybe I am crazy and can I believe in anything? Feelings of losing contact with reality.

Im kind of scared to tell anyone the hole depth of my mind, maybe they lock me up 😅 like even about astrology, because that’s nothing taken seriously here. But I truly believe astrology really can make difference for many people.

I believe I have a opportunity now, to use this time to evolve if I had some guidance in some way.

Jess1 » Kannon McAfee Thank you. Yes I’m really confused now. Like I’m ‘touching’ everything with thoughts of maybe I’m delusional (is this real?).

How long will I Uranus Quincunx Neptune?

~Laura~ » Jess1 Jess1
""How long will I Uranus Quincunx Neptune? ""

It lasted one year long and will definitely be finished on 03/14/2023 - without return.

~Laura~ » Jess1 Jess2
""Am i losing my mind?""

Yes - why not ? Isn´t it a useless and mostly disturbing thing ?

Jess1 » ~Laura~ I don’t now what you mean?

I’m scared they will lock me up in a closed psychiatric institution 😅

Jess1 » ~Laura~ Thank you but this Quincunx is as a square right? And that one will come back I think.

Hylonome It seems like your ego-mind is finally crashing, Jess. I was following your process since (almost) the beginning so if I understand well what you said in the post, it seems that your hard work is finally giving ("tangible") results. Honestly, I´m glad to read it, even if I imagine that your process is being hard, difficult, confusing and painful.

Remember that the mind is the perfect cheater until you educate it, so it will probably try to make you retrocede to your old mindset (at least with me it tried to play very much). It´s part of the process. It´s easy to say try to be patient with yourself but I am afraid that this is the only way. More desperate you feel without any kind of action, the worst will be.

I consider that all the uncomfortable feelings are there for making us move. So if you feel pain, anger, etc., these are uncomfortable feelings that push you to move -they are not there to make you feel bad.

"To move" here, would be doing the inner work.


Regarding to transits, I´m thinking if this could be reflected in the transiting Sun opposite your natal Mars in the 12th House, illuminating the subconscious and bringing movement in that area of your life... Your Mars doesn´t receive other aspect so I guess that the opposition feels stronger. Transiting Jupiter conjunct Chiron are (exact) opposite natal Pluto. Your Pluto as Mars, is not receiving other aspect as well. So I assume that these two transits are being strong for you now. The only thing I can say: it´s better you allow the process happens; it´s the best for you and your growing. Don´t try to avoid it. Try to be as centered as you can in the present moment. Observe around you even if it´s a chair, whatever; take the mind to the present moment. Be as present as you can (and don´t believe in everything your mind says you!).

I wish you the best for this process, Jess 🤍✨

~Laura~ » Jess1 Jess1
""1) but this Quincunx is as a square right?
2) And that one will come back I think.""

1)No .....and 2)no.

Jess1 » Hylonome Thank you 🙏 it’s kind of scary and lonely. I don’t have anyone to talk to, because they think I’m crazy. And I’m questioning myself too, maybe all of this is not happening. I’m thinking about planet earth so small in space, and honestly it’s so crazy, we live on a planet in something maybe forever never ending!? If that’s the truth, then anything and everything is possible. But why don’t people see that… I’m guessing it’s because we are busy doin and living a shallow life. Lost contact with ourselves our creativity and the universe.

Do you now anything about “to die before you die” ?

I don’t see anyway back to the one I was before but who knows… maybe if they lock me up and medicate me 😅

Jess1 » ~Laura~ 😅 that sounds good thank you

Spung Welcome to the crazy land ;)

But I´d say you´re probably getting your mind back. Don´t worry about what others will say.

I´d have a look into asteroid transits, they may uncover another layer.
Take care!

Jess1 » Spung Thanks for the advice but I’m okey now. Im working on dying before I die now 😁

Hylonome » Jess1 Oh yes, you seem to be in "that path". Should I say... "Welcome!"? 🤭 (*)

Remember: you´re a soul living a human experience. Then, the fear and whatever feeling created by your mind, is a thing of your mind. It´s a thing of the costume you´re wearing. But you´re the thing inside that costume. So it´s important you try to remember this everything you feel unbalanced. Because now you will balance your energy more and more and until your mind re-learn again, it will show you and try to impose you what it knew until now.

Now, this path is about you and only you. There isn´t nothing else. And with this I don´t mean you have to forget everything and everybody. With this I mean that you have to stop comparing yourself with others or trying to save them (because probably once you start seeing results, you´ll want to change everybody).

Yes, everything is possible because we are co-creators of our reality. In fact, if you start seeing around you, you will see that everything is a mirror of your inner world.

You don´t like something or someone? Try to see what is showing you. Maybe it´s the energy that you emits? Maybe it´s showing you a part of you that you don´t want to recognise?

Start seeing mirrors intead of: "he hates me", "life is against me", "everything goes bad" and you will start seeing solutions and opportunities intead of constant problems. This is one of the keys. Everything is a mirror of you.

So as I said, we are co-creators using our mind; so my first question to you, Jess: do you want to be locked up and medicated?

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"Do you now anything about “to die before you die” ?"
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In fact, yes. I have been in contact with death since I was 3 years. Life was always a constant death for me, like living a life inside another life...

The biggest death was my own one, when I did everything to kill my mental structures/patterns. Yes, I know that suffering. And yes, I can understand it doesn´t seem easy.

But you must know and this is the most important thing, that if you keep working on yourself, that pain you know today, one day ENDS. And then, the "problems", the uncomfortable situations, the feelings... Yes, you still have a normal human life but your PERSPECTIVE is other. And that´s exactly what makes everything different.

It´s not what it happens to you. It´s what you do with that.

Don´t be afraid of destroying every part you know of yourself. Once everything is dead, you will be free to construct what you want and as you want from your consciousness. And being awaken and aware is the best thing we can have.

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(*) I don´t like very much to say "Welcome" because it seems that the World is divided in groups and that one group is better than the other one. But at the same time I want to express my support for you in this moment you are going through 😊🦋

Spung » Jess1 I first now remembered your previous posts, and oh my, what a change Jess! You´re right, asteroids would be a total distraction now, you´re on the right path!

I don´t know if it´s too early to say, but I can feel the change about you so I´m going to
I never commented before since it was a bit too triggering for me, but I did hope you´d get out of that mental place you were in. And I´m happy to see you did

When the panic thoughts come just try to remember they are only thoughts, and that they will pass. Grounding in nature and routines is always a good choice. And connecting to own body.
That´s what will make you stronger and. All the best for you!

Linda Harris Yes...Neptune, Uranus, Jupiter are all causing stress and conflict in you now and for a while...and will also for a while..

So I am thinking...if you are so much "in your head" maybe you need a change of scenery...whatever that means to you...whether in your personal life, your activities when not at work, your career...or maybe just a good vacation...

OR maybe you need to study something...something you can do on your own...to keep your mind active and your feelings from attacking you.

You are not losing your mind. It needs to be distracted.
Linda

Jess1 » Hylonome Sorry for the delayed response, I’ve been down, a lot of anxiety about feeling lost and lonely. I feel I have to work this out, find peace in myself, with my self.. facing my fears and so. My mind wants to find a connection with something, striving for something that fits this feeling of love, togetherness. I just watched a documentary on Netflix called “Ram Dass going home” it just made me cry because it really touched my soul. But I also thought “ yeah it’s easy when you live in that environment sun, warm weather”. It’s ice cold here and everything seems dead, white grey, short days. Anyway I am here and there is nothing I can do about it.

I have to find my way right here. Working on my shadows. It’s just hard being alone. And people around you just don’t understand my journey, and I know, it’s my journey but it just makes my feelings of loneliness more prominent, talking to people who’s spending time nagging about silly things. I don’t mean to judge them. It just feels so meaningless, like why get upset over a guy lying on a bench enjoying the sun?! Why?! She’s like omg what’s wrong with that man!

And my mom and my sister… talking about celebrities and what they been doin/writing on their social media’s…

What I’m trying to say is, I miss someone to talk to, hang out with and just enjoy life. I’m stuck in my home with duties and myself and my children. But I have to accept that. Take care of my kids and myself. Find myself in this world. Find my place in this.

I don’t know if you should say welcome 😅 that seems a bit weird to me but I want to say thank you😊 for making me feel less crazy and less lonely, it means a lot ❤️

I would love to hear about your journey, if you don’t mind sharing it. You can send me a private message if you want. But no pressure to do so if you don’t want to.

Jess1 » Spung Thank you 🙏

Yeah it’s moving that’s for sure, up and down like a roller coaster haha

But that was really intense. I have never experienced that before. If I were doin drugs I would have understand but Im not! But I’m not really surprised either. I have a very vivid mind 😅 so having the universe in there isn’t really any chocking, but that day I just went to high 😅

Have you experienced anything like that? Maybe you are one of the lucky ones who live it? 😍

Jess1 » Linda Harris Thank you for your reply.

How long will this be? What’s coming after that?

Yeah I feel like I would be benefiting from changing scenery but im stuck here. I try to be creative painting and writing. The problem is also that Im lonely, I mean I need some adults to talk to (besides my curator and family counselor) Im getting there, I don’t work right now, I totally crashed back in October everything was black. Now I’m trying to get back on my feet while my hole self is braking down relationships, economically, the one I used to be. Even though I never meant for things to be like this I’m also responsible for it. But I can’t change the past. It’s been a hard lesson but I’m really trying to learn from it and do my best.

Kannon McAfee » Jess1 Transits making the quincunx aspect of 150° have an orb of 2° (applying, anyway). Because Uranus will not go retrograde back within that range, it should be completely over by April 22. You may feel relief before then.

Catch-22 Don´t worry, it´s the same for me.

I´m in and and

It´s definitely Neptune. It´s like my willpower, my sex drive and my hopes, dreams and fantasies all became liquid and are flushed around my body.

Enjoy the ride I´d say...