Confliction between freedom and wanting to be tied down to some placement (lasting) - Discussions, q

Anna239 » Linda Harris And Yessss I Really like big open spaces

I´m also used to it more than the opposite state

So I can´t imagine staying like this for years..

But I stay only for the people 👀
(Not that I have a family or partner currently)
Only people it turns out give me security

I also like the feeling of at least vaguely fitting in,


But yeah I also want my freedom or mental health within this it turns out

And it may not be too specific more than to say that I find cities oppressive even if they aren´t overtly designed to be so

Anna239 » Linda Harris Hehehe I´ve actually considered some of the clashes by groupings

Because I have the clash between my moon and Venus, but then there´s a link too because my 9th house is ruled by the 10th which is buddies with my 12th

But... Then also my 1st is ruled by the 9th where Venus is despite my 3rd where my Nn is being ruled by the 1st despite being Opposite to the 9th house...
Actually I´m not fully considering this aspect until now

But my Nn is square my moon and sextile Jupiter

Linda Harris » Anna239 Well, I think you are underestimating the number of conflicts in your chart.
Not only does Gemini clash with Virgo, it also is the opposite of Sagi....
Sagi likes the wide open spaces...Virgo likes space too...Gemini is the "city mouse".
It´s really a very big polarity. You may have to go where you feel you want to be at any one time and then move on....to someplace else you feel comfortable.

It´s hard to feel security under these circumstances...but you may have a gypsy in your soul.
So...it´s complicated...and your expectations need to be more mutable than fixed.

Leo likes to be at ease and have fun....but...that is only ONE dynamic of the Leo psyche. We need to DO things...creative things....even if the money is short.

Linda

Anna239 » Linda Harris Your right though, I have settled on what I want it´s just all these other things surrounding it...

There are still some big questions at play,
And it could be wanting peace of mind, authenticity (kind of equally freedom) Vs realism and Literal grounding of expectations

Anna239 » Linda Harris This is very true, I thought this as I wrote it actually...
It´s an inner battle that people have even if they don´t ever actualise on it externally in any extended ways

But I added isolated from the masses for a very good reason.
Sometimes I feel suffocated by it living very close to the/or a nucleus
It confuses me as there isn´t much sense to be made of it I think

As a Leo actually I´d rather commit, dust off my hands and sit back and relax

However... my 12th house moon, though in Virgo, occasionally feels like

What am I doing with my life??
I hope I am sacrificing my peace of mind for something tangible and truly realistic

If it isn´t I´d really prefer no part in any of this..

And my self expression feels stifled where I am too.
It seems like the present situation/people around cause this effect
I know it´s largely my personal self reacting in an individual way but..

Linda Harris » Anna239 This is a VERY common dynamic in a lot of people´s lives. Wanting to keep your options open...using your creativity and intuition.....versus having security and routine ....
One aspect is Venus square Moon....Gemini vs. Virgo....very much this issue. Freedom vs safe routine...

But just being a LEO...I mean Leo doesn´t want to feel "stuck" without options.

However, you have had your Saturn return...so by now you should sort of know what you want...be able to "visualize " your future...no matter how unique and unusual it is...KNOW what you definitely WANT in your future and what you DON"T want...that will make it easier for you to make ongoing decisions.

Sometimes this can be a delicate balance.

Linda

Anna239 » NotYourEnemy Just to stay somewhere, and make something lasting
Moving on and trying somewhere new

Or isolating from the masses at the very least

Anna239 » Metaterrestrial Thank you!
I find this to be a very good answer

And I agree

I had wondered it.. yet I didn´t know if this aspect had ´much weight´

Also because my Nn and Sn are in reverse (Libra asc) I feel like that can be confusing



My Venus is also square my moon, but I kinda feel like any freedom and uncertainty is coming from Both of them

My sun in the 11th may also have want me to stay put,
And also I had thought 4th house Neptune


Hmrrr... I don´t know if you could say how I could appease my moon at the same time as my Nn and sun

Interestingly my moon is in sync with my Neptune and mercury, idk exactly what that means

astral_travel Hi,

Some people like what is called Shibari,
Check it out,

I must say I´m not into it myself, but I do know people who do

Metaterrestrial - Your North Node is in your 3rd House, so I think your desire for stability and "wanting to be tied down to some placement (lasting)" is probably healthy. Maybe you need to focus on finding a community that you can be a part of, building wealth and financial security, and integrating yourself into the world.

- Your South Node is in your 9th House, so I think your conflicting desire for "freedom" might actually be holding you back.

Any other information that you would like to provide? What do you think about this?

NotYourEnemy What do you mean by "wanting to be tied down to some placement (lasting)"?