Am i losing my mind? - Discussions, questions

Catch-22 » Spung I wish I had, still a lot of air in my radix...

Hylonome » Jess1 That sounds good 😊 I like the background.... Maybe it doesn´t need anything else? 🦋 Have a good week, Jess!

Spung » Catch-22 Glad someone got it figured out
Take care!

Catch-22 » Spung Don´t worry. I take a lot of supplements for the real life situation and concerning astrological: I got Virgo ASC in my solar this year. Down to earth. Right to the minerals.

Jess1 » Hylonome Absolutely:) I’m not sure what to do with the background, this picture is just a piece of it all it’s full head and shoulders to. I will show you when it’s done. Hopefully soon 😊

Hylonome » Jess1 That´s cool! ✨ Then if it´s not finished, I´ll like to see it once it is done (if you want to share)! 😃

Jess1 » Hylonome Thank you 😊 no it’s not finished. Yes I try to use it a way to get my emotions out of my mind and body. 😊

Hylonome » Jess1 Wow Jess, you do it very well! 🦋🤗 Is it finished? If it´s not, I´ll like to see it again when it´s done! The color palette is nice! Well done!

It´s good that you paint. I used to make collages when I felt bad. It´s a very interesting process because you can release your feelings on them. I used to make collages with backs, so "I made them suffer" the pain I felt... If you see my collages, there are cuts, wounds, fire, chains 😅 But I consider it a healthy way of releasing the feelings you have. I have suffered with them while doing it and "I have made them suffer" and once it was finished, I think it was good.

Maybe this can be a good "therapy" for you as collages were for me. I don´t usually do them but when I do, I like it 😊

Jess1 » Hylonome Here’s my self portrait. Me feeling and looking my very best 😉

Hylonome » Jess1 Thank you Jess, but no... I am not wise as you´re not older 😅 If you want, try to reflect on that (the thing about your age), it seems to me more a mental pattern / idea you learnt from someone (when you were a child probably) that can limit you in some aspects (as any mental structure).

Ohh, no exactly, I don´t think that we have to suffer to enjoy life. In fact, I think that we can learn without suffering but yes it´s also true that we start acting once we feel an uncomfortable feeling ... I don´t know nobody that have made big changes being completely happy and in peace with their life 😄 So, I don´t think we have/need to suffer or feel pain but at the end, in the practice, I see this is the motor to move. That´s why I always say... Pain, suffering, uncomfortable feelings: they are there to make us move, not to live in them as if they would be a place.

I´ll like to see your painting! Nice idea! 🤗

Sorry for the delay, I hope everything goes good for you these days! ❤️ Thank you and take care too! 🦋✨

Spung » Jess1 Yes ;)
Today it was a bit easier, was trying to focus on the breath.

Jess1 » Rednan Thank you. I haven’t thought about that and that most definitely contribute to all of it.

And the ram dass quotes … LOVE THEM! 😍 I saw the documentary about him yesterday I think.

Thank you so much! Going to sleep with a smile on my face!

Jess1 » Kannon McAfee That’s easy. I’ve read “under full moon light on something special thing or with water (but not everyone can be cleaned with water.

So waiting for a full moon and didn’t know if it works if it’s cloudy and so on, it just haven’t been working for me 😅

Rednan » Jess1 Nodes are usually underrated and having yours in both virgo and pisces 1/7 i definitely relate to this feeling of worry about the reality structure and how fit in the vastness of it through the virgo analytical microscope of anxiety.



Astrologically thats what i would attribute to this particular worry,
it feels like you can´t breathe properly because virgo makes you feel
like poor little me in the vastness of it all and yes nodes are malefic but also very powerful in terms of perspectives we hold i guess.

I think thats a common feeling/impression we get that pushes to seek out spirituality when we realize no amount of rationality and needing to be right from an analytical perspective adds up enough to make sense.

Letting go of the need to understand how it adds up but the houses 1-7 makes it worst because you start to take it personal and wonder if others are also having this sense of being trapped.


Here´s a quote that i think fits the virgo need for truth and pisces openness :

"Have you ever noticed how many angry people there are at peace rallies? Social action arouses righteousness. Righteousness ultimately starves you to death. If you want to be free more than you want to be right, you have to let go of the righteousness, of being right."

"Righteousness is not liberation. It is known as the golden chain. You’re wonderful and you’re absolutely right, but you’re dead. I mean you’re dead to the living spirit. And finally, you want to be free more than you want to be right..."


- Ram Dass

Jess1 » Hylonome But I think you are very wise! 😌 and I’m old. It’s the gravity that’s making it hard 😅 age is visible and that’s a big problem for me 😅

Ok yeah I see… no pain no gain!

I’ve been working on a painting lately a portrait of my self
as I feel. I’m thinking I would have it as my profile picture when it’s done. You can have a sneak peek 😉

What do think? 😉😂 doesn’t match my good days though

Ps. Im not done with the face or background.

Im going to bed. Take care ❤️

Kannon McAfee » Jess1 I assume you mean the cleansing/recharging of crystals.

Yes, it is really simple. Just put them in a sunny window for a couple hours every week or two. It´s that simple.

Hylonome » Jess1 You´re very nice, Jess. Thank you for your words! 🤍🦋 I´m glad that what I wrote was understandable 😄

I wouldn´t say I´m wise (yes, I am 27)... I had to do something with the pain, didn´t have choice... And pain is a very good teacher 🙂 The age doesn´t exist. Do you know how maaany years our souls have? What is old or young? The only real age is what you feel. The thing is ... We are still inside this body and while we are here, then we have it all. And please, 44 years is old? You must be kidding 🙄😃🤍

I understand what you mean with the Universe! I don´t know exactly why you feel that but maybe is because some layers of your subconscious are moving and making its work! Your consciousness is expanding and you´re changing the point of view from where you see everything (and about how is everything).

Keep doing the good job! And thank you for saying that, I´ll be happy to talk with you if you write here. I like to see your progress, Jess and I am glad for you 🤗

All the best! 🤍🤍🤍

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PS.: sorry for saying this but I can´t avoid it, don´t you think that the black picture doesn´t represent you anymore? 😊✨ What about something like this https://www.pexels.com/photo/… or https://www.pexels.com/photo/… ? 🤭 Big hug, Jess! 🦋

Jess1 » Spung Thank you! You know what’s happening tomorrow right? 😉

Jess1 » 6 If you don’t believe it’s about astrology then you don’t understand my question. It’s not about what do I choose.

It’s about what’s happening inside of me that can be explained by astrology.

And yes that’s how we live now, a few human beings think they own this planet. But they don’t and they will eventually fall off their high horses. Things are changing. Pluto is leveling up soon. We are just a tiny part of something huge and it’s evolution. We are nothing in compare of it all but we are a part of everything.

Jess1 » Dreamer2 Thank you. It took me awhile to figure out what you meant.

I have been thinking all my life that everyone was deep diving in their minds just like me, but now I understand that not everyone does that or is even aware of their own possibilities to do it.

Anyway I hope I will turn my life around this year.

Jess1 » Kannon McAfee Ok thanks for the tips. I have a necklace on me all the time with a rainbow moon rock😅 (regnbågsmånsten in Swedish)

I dont really know anything about it. I also have several others it’s a wall decoration but I haven’t found a place to have them in my new apartment.

I just have problem handling the “cleaning” process, it’s to confusing when where how so I just don’t use them at all. Do you have any advice or tip about that?

6 i don´t think this is even a matter of astrology. you´re right in that it´s absurd how humans have organised the world into a set of systems we must navigate. it certainly isn´t natural, but this is simply what happens when you have beings that combine authority with logic.

your only two options are:
1. escape to live off-grid as a hermit or in a small community
2. learn to navigate the systems humanity has constructed and find a place within them where you have the freedom to act as you please

look at the billionaires! they have the ability to exploit working people with little to no consequence. they are in a privileged position within this system, and they have the freedom to act as they please.

Spung » Jess1 Yeey, we did!
Yeah, it´s funny to start observing thoughts, they just keep exploding then! Was trying not to go with the flow and back to focus, but it was a constant loop with a moments of awareness ;)

take care and hope you feel better soon!

Kannon McAfee When someone is going through multiple hard Neptune transits, I try to always remember to mention Sodalite.

I´ve found Sodalite to be the crystal that most often addresses the stresses of anxiety, confusion, worry that often accompany these transits. However, based on what you are describing I´m not sure it is indicated. Other Neptune gems are Blue(-green) Jade, Aquamarine, an Larimar.

Also, for people who need grounding the darker (brown/black) crystals can help: Boji stones, Hematite, Black Tourmaline, Smoky Quartz, and Staurolite. Staurolite is especially good for calming an overactive mind, getting out of your head, and restoring normal sleep/activity rhythms.

Jess1 » Hylonome Thank you for your kind words and cheer ups it means a lot.

I’m very good at beating myself down. And my ego is very strong. I’m fighting with questioning every thing, what is real and not. How do we really know if anything is real when we obviously no nothing? I often think about our planet, in space, the universe and the feeling is overwhelming me, it’s just so sick! We live in a planet in space where there is no ending!? When I think about it feels like I’m on a roller coaster, you know, that feeling in your stomach? Like it’s turn inside out. Why do I feel this so strong? Because I have about that many times in my life and been amazed with a good feeling and now it’s almost scary 😟 I have to suddenly stop thinking about it because of my stomach tingling so bad 😳 this is so weird !!!!


If I remember it right you are not very old? Like 28 I think? And you are so wise, that is just so cool. I really hate being old ( another thing to getting in to peace with!)

I think I understand your English very well 😅 I hope! Maybe I read something totally different then you are saying 😅 but it makes sense and uplifting

Omg the roller coaster ride I got from writing and thinking about the universe really got stuck in my stomach this time 😵‍💫 I need to drink water I think.

Hope to hear from you soon 🤗❤️