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Feeling lost during my 8h profection year

November 23, 2021 at 19:39 (UT/GMT)

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astrobby

Feeling lost during my 8h profection year

Hello, I hope everyone who comes across this is doing well and staying safe.

I have a lot going on in my life right now. I´m currently on the brink of becoming homeless, jobless (currently looking), flunking my recovery classes (to complete my high school graduation, I did not graduate this past spring due to mental health complications and COVID hitting), broke, and my mental health is on the line. My anxiety is heightened to the maax. I have a decent support system with my family and my partner. However, my relationship with my parents can be a bit rocky due to my ups and downs. I am having a talk with my parents today, asking if I can move back in after being from place to place after moving out of their house this past summer. (This feels like I´ve been engaging in my Sagittarius South Node by doing this, which I regret moving out in the first place. I did so without a plan) The reason why I moved out is because I felt restricted and there were too many rules. I have a tendency to want to be hyper-independent and think I know everything.

This is so far from the person I know I can be. When I am under a lot of pressure, stress, I have a tendency to be impulsive and engage in escapism. (Smoking tree, which I´m also starting to take a break from.) Last night, my partner told me he will no longer be with me if I don´t get my shit together, which is totally understandable. I´ve been highly co-dependent on him and those in my circle. As someone who is Saturn-dominant, this is far from a Saturnian way of life.

When I am doing well and have a lot of balance in my life, I am unstoppable and a go-getter. I feel far from it. I know I am intelligent and absolutely capable enough to get myself out of this rut. My struggle is consistency, dwelling on past mistakes, and not being defeated when something doesn´t go well. I´m trying to work on being consistent, remaining in the present, and growing as a person. I have so many aspirations and goals I´d like to achieve, such as, having my own place, going to a university in the fall (which after finding out I wasn´t graduating on time, I gave up on post-secondary education, but I know I am totally capable.), being mentally stable, and starting an online platform revolving around self-growth, spirituality, tarot, and astrology.

Currently, I am seeking help for my mental health, securing a job, and applying for other resources so I can feel more grounded and stable, after putting it off for so long.

I´m asking for advice, astrologically and would like to know what is going on in my current chart, transits etc. and how I can work with it.

Thank you :)

Paris

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November 28, 2021 at 17:59

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astrobby » Astrooo

Thank you to everyone who contributed the post and shed new insight into my life. It is greatly appreciated.

Paris<3

November 26, 2021 at 19:42

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Astrooo » astrobby

Hello.

1 / For the dates, download the ephemerides for the years concerned here:
https://www.astro.com/swisseph/…

You will quickly understand the origin of the dates.

2 / for Saturn passing over Neptune:
Imagine putting a pot (Saturn - the condensation) filled with sea water (Neptune - the confusion) to the boil

What´s left?

salt = the principle of reality, "the essential".

In Alchemy, salt is the symbol of wisdom.

and a life course can be compared to an alchemical process.

November 26, 2021 at 17:36

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astrobby » Astrooo

Hello, Astroo. Thank you so much for your effort!!

I´m still confused about your Neptune explanation and including that while tapping into my Saturn energy to avoid more of a downfall. I am also confused about the chiron explanation and the dates as well?

Thank you :)

Paris :83:

November 24, 2021 at 18:01

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Astrooo » astrobby

Hi,

Take a look at your map below.

1/ I insist on point B, because if you do not make allegiance to Saturn around this astral aspect, the Life will put you roughly in front of your "obligations" concerning all the stakes around the axis H4-H10.

But if you have understood the meaning of A (condensation = materialize the intuitions of Neptune), you should be able to this point B more serenely.

2/ Point of attention on the passage of Chiron on your black moon (Feb and dec 22)
Possibility of somatization of poorly assimilated energies, at the level of the head (migraine, sinusitis, head trauma) + "headaque" / quarell (in french, we say "Prize de Tete")

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November 23, 2021 at 21:28

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astrobby » Astrooo

Hello, Astrooo.

Thank you for your input. I know, I have some pretty strong placements in my chart as well as degrees that I need to tap into more deeply. Issues in my life have mainly centered around my home life and environment and inner world. This is spot on.

I need to tighten up and listen to Saturn for sure. There´s that little part of me that no longer serves me as of now that wants to use excuses and negativity to prevent me from moving forward. With hard work and discipline and even though it won´t be entirely easy, benefits will come my way and my future self will be thankful. I´ve done it before and it´s always a beautiful experience.

Paris :152:

November 23, 2021 at 21:14

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astrobby » Datta108

"Expect nothing from anyone"

That line right there has stuck with me. I am interpreting as to build my own stable, healthy foundation and having a plan. I´ve been running on life with too much flow, no plan, which has left me in a scarcity state.

Thank you. :)

Anyone else have anymore input? It´s greatly appreciated.

Paris :152:

November 23, 2021 at 21:13

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Astrooo

Hello,

In a few words

look at your card.
saturn 8deg aquarius passes exactly on your IC + neptune conjunction == Saturn will ask you to put your interior life in order (your home, your psychic life, your family environment)

don´t panic, take advantage of this Saturn crisis to "clean" yourself.

your birth chart also offers you great assets to exploit (look at your beautiful sun framing: jupiter, mars, sun, mercury from H9 to H11)
point of attention: Sun Virgo / Mars leo exactly opposite Uranus Aquarius == great tension between desire for social realization H10 (to be useful = Virgo and recognized = Leo) and need for independence (Uranus, master aquarius H4 + Saturn H8 = house of transformation into gemini , Mercury master gemini and .....Virgo)

additional interpretation to follow in a few days.

the main thing to remember for the moment is to "listen to" Saturn, even if it is not pleasant at first.
you will reap the benefits in a few months.

November 23, 2021 at 20:55

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Datta108 » astrobby

Yes I use jyotish as taught to me by my spiritual teacher from India.

Yes during Saturn dominated periods you will get back instant karma ,and since transit wise Saturn is afflicting your moon(moon represents mind) And Saturn Maha dasa is running it´s better to become spiritually minded in life, expect nothing from anyone and you won´t be disappointed. No reason to be fearful, Saturn simply gives back our past karmic reactions so everything in the future will improve if you´re making a spiritual effort now🙏🕉🌹🌻

November 23, 2021 at 20:40

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astrobby » Datta108

Hello, Datta108. What an interesting take, yet this just instilled more fear in me, honestly. Life did begin to get hectic in January 2020. Thank you for your input, though. I definitely will start incorporating more daily spiritual practices since I have been slacking on that.

Another thing to make of note is karmic is a big theme of my life. I do good, I receive good karma. If I do something the slightest bit against my own good, someone´s else´s good, I´m hit with bad karma right away. I´m a heavy karmic person, I´ve realized in recent months. Karma is connected to Saturn, so that doesn´t surprise me.

Is your take based off of Vedic astrology? I´ve always wanted to explore it.

Paris :)

November 23, 2021 at 20:16

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Datta108

Namaste this is all Saturn´s Lila that you´re going through, Saturn´s play.
Saturn Maha dasa started in 2010 and you´re only half way done as its 19 years long.

Plus your 7.5 year Saturn "Sade sati" period started ,so many problems could have escalated from January 2020 onwards.

On the positive side, Jupiter has entered Aquarius which is your 1st house from Aquarius moon last week so changes are in the air in this transition phase culminating in new opportunities, betterment and improvements in life, gains,etc starting in April 2022 to April 2023.

But Sade sati will still be in effect so any gains made should be consolidated and caution in making major life decisions is the byword until it´s over.

Since you say you are spiritually minded kindly start doing spiritual remedies for Sanichara on Saturdays by Giving donations and some charity, Fasting til sunset, avoiding all intoxicants, gambling etc..
Read spiritual scriptures and books about Saints and holy men,you have Jupiter exalted in your chart, abundant God´s grace is there for you if you start making a spiritual effort now🙏🕉🌻

November 23, 2021 at 19:53

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astrobby » leorising

Hi, leorising. Thank you for your reply :) I´m so glad I´m not the only one.

Viewing it at a bigger picture, I need to find balance between being independent and asking for help. I dislike asking for help because I get really anxious and fear asking for too much. However, I need to tap into the appropriate amount of independence as well and not be dependent on others for the wrong reasons.

Most of all, DISCIPLINE and STRUCTURE! I need to tap into that heavily, as well as consistency like I mentioned. When I am doing well in my life, I love discipline. I make wiser choices, I don´t allow myself to fall into bad habits or act on impulse, and it brings more fruition into my life.

I tend to be very black and white, extreme or not extreme. That could also play into my mental health, as one of my doctors have raised concerns about me having a mood disorder, specifically BPD.

My scorpion energy and my inner self is craving transformation, but it feels like fear is swallowing me whole. I know deep down there´s a little bit of strength left in me to escape this darkness.

Paris :152:

November 23, 2021 at 19:44

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leorising

I went through a moment like this, in my year of the 8th house profection, it felt like I had reached my limit. the 8th house as the symbol of the 8th is, an infinity. but on the other hand it also allows you to reach the bottom of the well, reach a spring that is down there and then go up from a higher level than you were before. In my case I needed my emotional fix. so when i managed to do that i fixed all my problems. try to see the bigger picture, what do you think you need to change about yourself? Anything you can change and give you a chance to get out of this crisis much better? :68: